she comes toward me
smoking a cigarette
& I smell immediately
a strong mix of smoke & perfume
she stops as she sees me
its you! its you!
as she moves in for an embrace
like the last time never happened
as if we left as friends
she nuzzles in
you still smell the same
polite as ever I say as do you
she lets go & says
fatter tho!
your new woman must be feeding you well
like she doesn’t know
I have no new woman
I still have the one
after her
she starts coughing at her joke
& I can hear her lungs creaking
soggy & sodden
her dry larynx & tongue clacking
still on 40 a day
& you gave up for her didn’t you?
she has more questions now
that i have no desire to answer
I sidestep
I must go must go
& she tries to come with
you meeting her for lunch?
no I go I just gotta go y’know?
as her face falls
knowing I do not want her
to follow