my boss felt I was some kind of thug
& discovered all kinds of evidence
that this was true
my woman thought I was her greatest lover
& found everything I did between the sheets
all that I said were sure indications
until that is the wind changed direction
my enemies knew in their bones I was an idiot
as every action word I uttered showed them truths
verified their deep considered deliberations
& there was nothing I could do to change any of that
there were some I taught told me I was kind
compassionate full of warmth & encouragement
while others decided the same words & actions
were signs of insanity sarcasm & subversion
& all of these are truths
while none hold water
the ayes may have it
while the noes hold power
& in all of these
I am but a seeker fumbling his way through