& while that was going on

the light woke me

I close the door

after I pee at night

so I must’ve slept straight through

but I needed to go now

& while that was going on

fragments of my dream

came to

chasing wraiths phantoms

I could not hear her voice

had forgotten

what she sounded like

& was climbing a stair

where

a black dog jumping at me

to throw a ball

& tickling I was saying

it’s a pity you can’t purr

like a cat

but her voice?

I’m sure if I heard her

ever again

I’d know for sure

about that &

it won’t be in this lifetime