some things you don’t

we forgave her ways

she always wanted me

when I was seeing someone else

pulled the same stunts

on my brother from another mother

who got hurt annoyed by that

vowed never to speak again

while I let her shine on

but stayed out of her clutches

in touch only on weddings

high days & funerals

of one of my best ever friends

& I find her spreading the shit

how she was the best ever friend

I was the reclusive louse

who never stayed in touch

was not there at the end

& there is I fervently hope

a special place in hell

for people like these

there will always be those

we will forgive

hate the sin love the sinner

but there are some people

push you to that place

& some things you don’t

ever

love is not never enough

she will never know

not being in the habit

of asking anything

not about herself

I tried

no

worked hard to forgive

if never quite forget

for forgetting is not to be watchful

of the same shit being pulled again

I tried & worked hard

putting in the hours of care

only for this to mean nothing

for I forgave

while she gave nothing up

carried on much the same

I’d hoped she would see

feel care being given

& maybe learn to give care back

because I’m told

all you need is love

to change the world

though I knew full well

that people will only do what is easiest

do what they have always done

unless they feel enough pain

to deviate them from their path

love is not never enough

& sure enough

the same shit stunts got pulled

again

leaving no option

but to walk away

down the one way street

again

still be with you

there was a whole bunch

of shitty tricks stunts pulled

you don’t need details

you’ll have had your own strokes done to you

& when I caught up to ask the why?

it was because I didn’t love her enough

had taken what I had away

& it was her turn to be the bitch

& I tried all gentle

talking in soft tones

as you have to

in the company of the criminally insane

maybe baby

if you hadn’t been such a bitch

there in the first place

I would still be with you

today