never enough

creating connections

layering on history

grandad did this

grandma loved those

aunty wore that colour

you take after your parents

her hair his nose

& on

creating connections

with people now gone

to enhance today

because being

is never enough

in itself

love is not never enough

she will never know

not being in the habit

of asking anything

not about herself

I tried

no

worked hard to forgive

if never quite forget

for forgetting is not to be watchful

of the same shit being pulled again

I tried & worked hard

putting in the hours of care

only for this to mean nothing

for I forgave

while she gave nothing up

carried on much the same

I’d hoped she would see

feel care being given

& maybe learn to give care back

because I’m told

all you need is love

to change the world

though I knew full well

that people will only do what is easiest

do what they have always done

unless they feel enough pain

to deviate them from their path

love is not never enough

& sure enough

the same shit stunts got pulled

again

leaving no option

but to walk away

down the one way street

again