of the long goodbye

I held my breath

for a little while

& you did not notice

being caught up

in what you wanted to say

not realising

what your words were meaning

today was the start

of the long goodbye

& who was i

to hold you back

slow up those dreamings?

I took a breath

gave out a smile

though I knew certain

there were other things

I’d be holding onto

from now on

another way

I’d drive them out of the city

sensation seeking students

& sometimes aspiring ne’er do wells

who the city wanted put straight

driving out to nature

where I’d walk them down a trail

to a full green valley bowl

scatter them off to disperse

find a spot by themselves

just sit for a while

four hours maybe five

until they heard the come here whistle

& some would come back too soon

unable to be alone

to be set back off again go complete

& at the end of the exercise

some would complain

of the tedium boredom isolation

the long dragging day

others would say felt like minutes

& the long drive home

was full of silence as the experience

of no phones no tv no people

just sitting by themselves

settled into their bones

now they knew

there was another way