mary anning found me

I try to move amongst them

become part of the group

& end up almost despair

in tears of frustration

not understanding the what

of what is going on

I thought we were here to do X

I wanted to do that

learn all of that

but that seems not enough

for these people here

they need to gain status

set up an elite

a them & us situation

& I feel too keenly

the them label fitting too tight

not part of their clique

& all I wanted

was to do X

instead to only

feel failure again