my eyes have seen
many things
that I wish I could see again
again
& others
needing bleach to clean
my brain
riffing thru’ dark corners
pages of the interwebs
seeing half naked pic’s
thinking
I kinda recognise that face
(thankfully nothing else)
wondering
is that my mother?
posing for one of her lovers?
pleased now
I could not
even if I wanted to
for whatever dark reasons
see her again
at least there in murky places
she lives on
happy with how she is